I Miss Alabama

I knew that I would miss our life back in Alabama when we found out we were moving.... but while we were there (much longer than we'd thought), I became more and more ready to move on. And I wanted to badly to get sent back here to NC. Now that we are here, boy.... do I miss Fort Rucker. I love it here, please don't get me wrong, and I really love that we are so close to Coco's Grandparents, but today for some reason, I feel very home sick.  Maybe it is the change in the weather, that it feels like Spring here today. The warm air, I don't know. I miss my old house. I miss waking up and padding out to the living room, curling up on the couch with my hot chocolate and watching Webster freak out over the squirrels on our bird feeder. I miss the way the sun hit our walls in the late afternoon. Troy would get home from work in his uniform and we'd often grill out for dinner. I miss taking our evening family walk around our neighborhood. We would stop at the Bark Park so Webs could play with the other doggies, and he loved it so much! Colten would curl up in our arms and a blankie, and we'd watch Classical Baby as the sun started dipping down behind the trees. After Colten went to sleep sometimes I would hook up Webs on his leash and go for another mini-walk to watch the sunset and see the colors in the sky. It was so beautiful there at night. I miss it. Gosh, I miss it there alot today, maybe it is the hormones running through me like crazy today, maybe it really is the weather. But as much as I love finally being here in North Carolina, I really miss AL, and the first home I shared with my husband and our growing family.
Here, it was my Dad's home. He isn't here anymore. The house needs a lot of work and financially, we are just ready to sell. But there are no buyers now and it's frustrating, but I'm sure it will sell in it's own time. I guess I just don't feel settled here because we know we plan to leave at some point. But the highlight though of being here, is that I am expecting our second child, and that makes it a joyous place above anything else. We get to see Troy's parents every week which is wonderful and lots of fun for all of us, especially little C. He loves them so much, and it is such a joy watching him with them playing and just being with them! :) 
I think I'll feel more settled when the weather really changes, and stays changed. Even as I sit here writing the sun is fading behind a wall of dark clouds. I think rain is coming. And it's been a very cold winter.... I have loved firing up our fireplace almost every night, but the cold seeps into everything, and it is so expensive with the electric baseboard heating. Over $400 last month.  But even still, every day brings us closer to warmer weather. I will enjoy my wonderful fireplace as long as I can.  :)

A Quiet Night

While my husband is intensely watching the Duke/Carolina game on t.v. in the living room, I thought I would take my leave and retire to our room, light my new lavender candle (a gift from my hubby and son today) and just take some time for quiet. Though we live here in the country where it is almost always quiet, save for the train whistles from down the road a piece, it is nice sometimes to just have a little time at night to just reflect. 
It is supposed to be snowing tonight, maybe up to 5 inches in some places, but so far all we have is rain. For a Virginia girl, this is hard, because when I head that snow is headed me way I instinctively get all excited and relaxed at the same time. I love snow. I really love snow. So when I get that last minute email update from the Weather Channel cancelling our Winter Weather Warning, I cry a little inside. It sucks!!!! I am hoping for the best, but honestly I'm not holding my breath. We've been cancelled around here a lot lately, so I'll be excited when I see a white blanket outside in the morning.
In Virginia growing up, snow meant a lot of things to me. First and foremost as a child it meant the beloved SNOW DAY! No school, hot chocolate all day long and play time outside with my neighborhood friends! We would go back and explore the woods behind my house and look for little hills we could sled down, dodging trees and whatnot until we were so tired we feared we'd get lost finding our way home!  As an adult (sort of), snow again meant SNOW DAY- a glorious day off of my job as an after school program supervisor and sleeping in, more hot chocolate all day long, and sewing a quilt while curled up on my couch, candles lit and a good movie on the tube. And watching the snow fall outside for hours.
There is something so beautiful about snow.  
Sigh....   here I am, getting my hopes up again.....   I guess we'll see.