Saturday, March 26, 2011

Farewell Big Love (Spoiler Alert)

Last night we said goodbye to my all time favorite television family, the Henricksons..... it was a series finale that I won't forget, and by far the best one I have ever seen. It broke my heart. I don't even know how to explain it without sounding like a psycho weirdo, but I honestly loved these characters, what they stood for (for the most part), and the fundamental love of family that was so prevalent throughout the series. I felt like I knew these people, particularly because I am familiar with the LDS church and individuals in my life who's own love of family really reflects that of these main characters. I grew up with them, so I feel like I already know Bill and Barb- Nicki, not so much and Margene, kind of in a way. But wow, I felt like I was in a mild state of mourning last night. I sobbed. Honestly sobbed.
I knew that something bad was coming.... last week when Alby came after Bill in the capitol and drew his gun, I thought that was it.  Or the beginning of 'it.'  But I had no idea what was coming. None of us did. That is the telling of amazing writers and a fantastic show. So much is predictable on t.v. these days, but this wasn't. And to me it makes sense. I know that Carl just snapped. He'd tried to be a true blue Mormon, live a good life and pay his tithing, do what was expected of him. Thenit turned out that he and his wife couldn't have children, lhe lost his wife and his job.... but then there was Bill, content in his "sin" of polygamy, yet becoming a senator and had 3 beautiful wives and 8 (or rather 9) children.  Carl just finally lost it.  But I still cannot believe that Bill is gone. In my heart, it had to be that really he did survive, even though we know and can plainly see at the end, that he did not.
It sincerely broke my heart to see him sitting at that table, gazing that the women he loved more than anything still together and loving one another nearly a year after his passing. But it was the moment when he asked Barb to give him a blessing that really hit me. I watched with tears streaming down my face when he finally acknowledged her divine equality with him, her right to give a blessing as he lay dying in her arms. Whew. Getting choked up here again.
The only thing that I did not like about this final episode was Margene.  I was really dissapointed how when all the wives were taking the drive in Barb's new car, and she told Barb to just go pick up Bill and keep on driving, therefore leaving her children behind. And at the end, it showed her getting ready to leave on another service trip without her kids for 3 months, and having to be reminded to call as she barely did so on her last trips. It was really sad that her character could be like that at the end.... Trying to live a more giving life, and yet being so terribly selfish. I'd loved Margene from the begining, but these last two seasons and especially this last episode, tarnished her to me.
And before you say anything, YES, I know it's just a show but I am telling you, they reeled me in after the 1st year and never let go. 
I miss them already. I miss the houses and the decorations, how warm and inviting they were, (very similar to how I'd always planned to decorate my own house some day, which I thought was cool right off the bat). I miss the music, oh how I miss the music. I miss the love between Bill and Barb most of all. How they had the "affair" and fell in love all over again after almost 18 years of marriage. I miss how no matter how opinionated and principled Bill was from the beginning, and mostly after the last two seasons, he loved his family above everything else and did it all for them, I really believe that. Sure, he did seem very self-important there at the end, but to him the most imporant thing was his family. Though all of their individual unhappinesses really seemed to make that difficult there at the end.

Anyway.... I just needed to write, I haven't posted anything on here in longer than I'd planned to so I thought I would take this opportunity to post my tribute to Big Love- the best show there ever was.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Half Way There

Well, I've now reached the halfway point in my pregnancy and I am very excited! And I have news......

IT'S A BOY!!!!    :)     Yep, God has blessed our little family with another precious baby boy and I am over the moon!  So happy, so happy!  :)    Troy was fist-pumping the air and I had tears just streaming down my face! She said it was a boy and I lost it- for two reasons:  the first is, I get to have another son!!  And the second it, my mother's intuition is officially defective!  I thought Colten was a girl, but I was wrong. Ok.  But this time, there was no doubt, I would have put money on it that baby was a girl..... nope!  LOL, I don't get it, I don't understand how I was so wrong, but I am happier than I could ever express in words!  I cannot wait to meet my little man!  We need a name, obviously, and we have a few in mind but nothing for certain just yet.  We'll let ya know!  :)